Show your girl some love

So as many of you know, in addition to being a wanton slut, I'm also a community organizer with the Sex Workers Outreach Project here in NYC. We do everything from public advocacy to community support to know your rights trainings. Among a lot of other things. The challenge? We're a completely volunteer-run, grassroots organization. That's right - no formal funding, no paid staff.
I've been doing community organizing with this group for two years and I can't say enough for the group and how transformational it is to have something like this around. I joined the group as a community member and almost three years alter I'm still there as an organizer, and I can't stress how important this work is.
And now for the ask: we have the opportunity to go a conference in a few weeks which reaches a whole new area: adult film. Below is a blog entry about why this is so important, but long story short - adult film is one of the most organized, well-funded areas of sex work. They do lots of advocacy, but rarely on behalf of the actors. We will be the only advocacy and rights organization at the conference, and without that voice, these concerns will once again be brushed aside. They've comped us all the registration fees, but it still costs us a good chunk of change for the rest of the fees. We're already paying our own transportation, hotel, etc, so we're really just asking for help covering our fees and printing and we only have FOUR days left to raise the cash! Which is why I'm asking.
Now here's the second pitch. For anyone who donates over $50, I will write you your very own blog entry. Tell me what turns your crank, and I'll write something super dirty just for you. Send me an email telling me you donated and what you like to hear and cross my sick little fucked-up heart, it's yours. In addition to whatever other cool swag you'll get.
So for everyone who wants to garner favor and love: http://www.indiegogo.com/Help-SWOP-NYC-Attend-Exxxotica

Thanks all! Promise something dirty is on its way!

Why this is Important:

Next month will conclude a series of conferences for the adult film industry which have cris-crossed the country in the last few months. In its fifth year, Exxxotica now boasts an average of 20,000 attendees at each exhibition, bringing together adult film stars, devotees and exhibitors of every stripe. This year, SWOP-NYC has been invited to join in the event, and we are excited for the opportunity to attend, and reach a whole new group of people with our work and our advocacy.

But this event is bigger than just new membership. The adult film industry is an important area in the field of sex work, and one which is often overlooked in sex industry advocacy. One major difference between the adult film industry and many other sectors of sex worker are that it operates within legally established bounds, meaning many of the challenges around legalization are faced in a very different arena. But this also means that adult film performers are one of the most organized areas of the sex industry. The industry has a strong voice in expanding what is legally permissible, and has the capital and voice to engage directly in the political system to advocate for expanding its borders.

What is still lacking, though, is a stronger voice to advocate for the rights of performers, both at work and in their day-to-day lives. Adult performers still face issues such as stigmatization, mandatory health testing, privacy and copyright concerns, and exploitation. Just this year filmmaker and sex educator Tristan Taormino was uninvited from speaking at Oregon State University’s conference on “Modern Sex” for her body of work in progressive, often education-focused pornography. Three months later a site calling itself “Porn Wikileaks” revealed the legal names, stages names, home addresses, and HIV statuses of 15,000 current and former performers. According to a Gawker article on the subject, the site (which has since been closed) not only reveled in revealing legal names of performers, “but their addresses, family members’ information, copies of state identification—even Google Maps pictures of their homes.”

These very real hurdles are human and labor rights violations which are the exact reasons why advocacy exists, and what is needed is a voice not for the industry but for the worker. SWOP-NYC is ready and primed to be that voice. By attending the Exxxotica Conference, SWOP-NYC will be the only group bringing this much-needed message to a community primed and ready for change.

For the event, SWOP-NYC is trying to raise $1,000, both for attendance and the printing of new materials (including a swanky new t-shirt!). Please help SWOP and SWANK bring this message to an industry which is ready for action by donating today. We’re offering some great donor rewards for those who are kind enough to show their support.

Open Letter.

To my dearest xxx,
I wish you are here but sadly, you're far, far away tonight. I want to kiss you but that's all I can do and the thought is practically painful.
Bad hurt.
I sit with my legs closed, squeezing them now and then to try and gain some pressure as I busy my hands. My clit would be raw with unsatisfying cold and emptiness if I let myself play as much as I want, trying to get the high of your hands.
I tried to watch porn, but there was nothing inspiring. I watched women and men getting fucked in position after position which we have or should have used by now. I watched cum shots until they bored me. I couldn't bare another girl on girl 69.
But I will wait. I would rather ache. I would rather wait, letting my wetness pool in my panties, letting blood and pressure build. I'll let it stew inside me, growing slowly like vines over my body until I can't take it anymore and I fuck myself wildly. Later. Alone.
I'll do everything I'm sure people already think I do. I'll mount vibrating appliances, fill my holes with dildos and thick vegetables. I'll call myself names, fucking wildly, with the purest sense of abandon. I'll play Russian roulette with fantasies, waiting until the chamber clicks and I feel like I'm going to die. I'll cum in rivers and screams and tears so hard I fear I may pass out. I'll gasp for air. I'll be sore tomorrow, and feel shame for my recklessness.
All in a wish for a single strong hand of yours coming strong across my face, the richest pain settling into my cheek and jaw.
But still I wait.
This is as close to chaste as I will ever be.
Devoted,
your girl. whore. girl.